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Teacher of the Year Blog
5/24/2019
         The Teacher of the Year Experience:  Part I.
Overwhelmed.   That is the only way to describe my experience since being named Teacher of the Year so far.  I have been overwhelmed with surprise, humility, gratitude,  responsibility, pride,  and even guilt.  And this is only the top of the emotional list.  
Surprise.  I truly did not expect to be selected among the absolutely phenomenal talent of the four other finalists, not to mention the entire pool of candidates.  I will get into the relationships that I have formed with the amazing ladies of this finalist cohort in another post, but I must say here that this was a pleasant, unexpected surprise.   The actual announcement was probably one of the greatest surprises of my lifetime.  When I returned to my seat after receiving my ridciulously awesome prizes and making my speech (all a blur in my memory), all that I could say was, "What just happened?".  My husband's simple reply:  "You did." He's a keeper.
Humility.  I have been so humbled by the students and colleagues past and present that have reached out to me throughout this process with words of support, both spoken and written.  I had no idea the way that I had touched their lives.  I have always believed that I have been simply doing my job; I have always known the influence that teachers possess and the power of our profession, but somehow I never actually knew that I have been touching the lives of so many along the way; I have always focused on the way that my students have touched me.  To say that a few tears were shed throughout this process is a gross understatement. 
Gratitude.  Gratitude has been the strongest of emotions experienced.  I am so thankful for the blessing of my work and am thankful for those who have taken the time to notice my passion and my hard work.  I am so thankful for the gift of this process and for things that I cannot possibly adequately put words to, like my own children weeping with pride in me.  Last but not least, I am thankful for the generous sponsorships that are not afraid to make honoring the teaching profession a priority by offering gifts of an unbelievable magnitude to the Teacher of the Year program.  I wonder if the sponsors know how they have removed the burden of stress from my shoulders in so many ways, from the worry every time I prayed when starting my hooptie of a car to figuring out how to possibly afford braces for my daughter who needs them so desperately.  The removal of this weight cannot possibly be equated to a dollar amount.
Responsibility.  It became clear very early on that Teacher of the Year isn’t simply about parading around with an apple on your  car.  On my way home from the banquet I stopped to pay my toll at the Hatem Bridge.  The toll taker noticed the decal on the car and quickly engaged me in a speech about how teachers do not deserve all they are asking for at the price of the taxpayer.  I remember thinking, “Well, that high didn’t last long, did it?!”  After quietly listening and thanking him for his opinion, I quickly realized the power of the position of Teacher of the Year.  I am a symbol of  thousands of hard working, caring teachers and am a representative of the most phenomenal profession that exists today.    How will I defend and support it and  also make it shine? 
Pride and “Winner-guilt”.    I am so proud of my students and my school, and my profession.  I am trying to enjoy and savor every moment that I am experiencing , which brings me to the “winner guilt.”  This has been the most difficult challenge for me thus far.  It has taken a lot for me to say that I deserve this honor, but more difficult still, has been the realization that there are SO many teachers out there who deserve this just as much as
I do, but will never get this type of gratitude and celebration in their honor .  I met a fellow Teacher of the Year from Howard County, Greg Murach,  2 days ago, and when we were talking about this feeling he put it into perspective beautifully when he said, “It’s our time to shine, and our duty to represent everyone else well.” 
 
  This has been the single most powerful personal and professional development experience that I have had in my twenty year career.  Over a month after the announcement, I still do not feel that I have fully grasped the reasons why I am here and the power that I can harness to make this the most important endeavor on which I have ever embarked.  My mind is constantly spinning with ideas and initiatives that I would like to explore for the coming school year.  Please know that I fully realize the power of this responsibility and rare opportunity for a platform for classroom teachers.  I want to do my absolute best to represent our profession for what it truly is; the greatest profession on which a person can embark.  I also crucially realize that I cannot do this alone.  I desire feedback and ideas and crave the results that collaboration and coordination can and will produce.  So please reach out, let me know what you're thinking, and what you need.    I am currently brainstorming a communication outlet that will make this type of collaboration between us possible.  Thank you for trusting me with this honor.   I promise not to disappoint you.

Here are some of the coolest things this Teacher of the Year has experienced so far:
  • Seeing my mom and my girls cry because they were so proud of me. 
  • The ENTIRE Havre de Grace Elementary School walking to my school the day after the banquet to surprise me with a banner, flowers and high fives!  One beautiful, young scholar told me, “Someday I want to be a teacher just like you.”  BEST GIFT I HAVE EVER RECEIVED IN MY LIFE, HANDS DOWN.
  • On the same day...the sound of drums echoing up the hallway as I settled in with my morning cup of coffee.  The percussion line of our Warrior Band led the parade of supporters from our school community to my classroom door.  Warrior family forever! 
  • I had a RESERVED parking spot at the Service Awards Recognition dinner, at which I spoke.  Shoot...I'm usually the one parking the cars :)
  • Looking forward to many more experiences and adventures!!!!